I’m not gonna lie to you, I just had a BINGE-FEST of a weekend.
And the truth is that I loved every single minute. 😋
Me, Aeythen and Aeythen’s family all gathered at our new pad: the food, the wine, the restaurants, the DELICIOUS baklavas (yep, there were a whole tray of baklavas demolished - THAT’S when you know you’re really reaching overindulgent depths),
And it didn’t go on for just 1 or 2 days, it spilled out into yesterday, Monday too!
You know that EXTRA DAY? When you need another day (always seems to be a Monday) to get over the weekend that was?
To be fair, I didn’t drink yesterday and I did exercise, but I did also eat some more baklavas and of course had to polish off the party food that WASN’T eaten at the weekend!!
So let me unpack this for you, and let you know what I do to get myself back on track with my monthly and day to day goals when I find myself coming off track.
Because I know that we all come off track sometimes. And it seems to be even MORE the case (and extreme) I’ve found, when you’re a driven, ambitious and successful person.
You see all that energy, all that drive, all that creativity, passion and ALL IN mindset can pretty much go 1 of 2 ways for you:
You’re either WINNING and winning big by channeling that energy into what you need to do to move the needle forward in all areas of your life,
Or you’re self-destructing, which can be as big as literally KILLING YOURSELF by all means of destructive behaviour, or as small as being complacent, hiding or playing small.
Now I’m not saying that we can’t (or I can’t) have a big weekend once in a while. No, that’s not what I’m saying at all -
I LOVE having weekends like I’ve just had - filled with the people I love most in my life - staying up late, laughing, connecting, eating and drinking - it’s ALL GREAT
It’s just that in the past, in my twenties and even some of my thirties, this one weekend would have turned into a week, 2 weeks, a month and possibly more!!
And meanwhile my health goals, fitness goals, self development goals and business/money goals would have gone out of the window.
Because too much of a good thing always UNBALANCES you.
And I can tell just after this one weekend that the overindulgence of sugar, carbs and EVERYTHING has started to affect my mindset.
I’ve become less tolerant, picky, not as grateful and not as appreciative. I’m judgey, quick to react and quick to pick out the faults in myself and every other person/thing.
Our beautiful new wood burning stove that got delivered yesterday is not good enough, the bold and royal colour scheme I had mapped out for my lounge (emerald & aubergine!) is now in question after committing myself financially to the curtains, I’ve put on some extra pounds over the weekend and don’t like how I feel in my skin so I’m not good enough, I’m starting to look at people around me in a negative light and wondering if THEY are good enough…
Not good enough. Not good enough. Everything is not good enough!
Urgh. Superiority/Inferiority creeping in everywhere…
And this was after my activation on the 11/11 to free myself and all those who attended live from that very programme! (Which is perfect, because of THE LAW OF OPPOSITES. When you see the opposite of what you were manifesting it is actually a GOOD SIGN, so long as you are conscious of the tests, the thinking and behaviour and get super focused on how to alchemise it permanently from your field).
Thank God that what I can rely on thanks to 14 years of solid personal development & spiritual evolution is that my Self Awareness is super strong…
I know this isn’t me. Not the real me anyway. I know this is an old ego programme operating which kicked in because I left the door open a little too long this weekend (which hey, is definitely NOT the end of the world) that is, let’s be honest, lacking in compassion.
So I went to bed last night, CONSCIOUSLY focusing on whispering sweet nothings to myself as I lay in bed and turned off the light.
I DID NOT tolerate blame, shame or any form of negativity. I ONLY allowed in self love, understanding, trust in my process and trust in my ability to get myself back on track.
And today there has been a few tests also to my character. I did not react the way I would have liked to when our new bed got delivered and Aeythen ‘stole’ (yes ‘stole’ according to my ego) my joy of being the first one to see it because I am being entitled!!! 🤯 (These are the 4 Code out of balance in the Blueprint by the way) -
It was not a great feeling when I went to my doctors this morning for a check-up and after all the excess this weekend I weighed in quite a few pounds heavier than I would have if I had seen her last week! And I got the talk (quite compassionately I will say) about “if I ever need help in losing weight we offer xyz programme…” 🤮 It’s just not where I want to be - especially after really making my health a high priority and actually losing 22 pounds so far this year! (These are the 8s out of balance in the Blueprint).
But it’s all about perception and getting into aligned action.
I actually booked in the doctor's appointment on purpose so that I could hold myself accountable to my health goals.
And I know that as part of me writing this to you now it will help me re-align with what my monthly goals are for November.
So that my binging on sugar & carbs and over-indulgence WON’T go on for a whole week, or 2, or the entire month like it used to!
So that I can build the muscle of TRUST in myself & take my journey of SELF LOVE to the next inspiring level.
Because these are 2 big parts of the overall weaponry of my success.
I know what I need to do today to hold myself accountable and get committed AF to who I came here to be.
To allow myself some slack, some kindness, some time off and over-indulgence AND read the warning signs and kick my arse back into touch when I’ve taken things too far.
THAT feels liberating.
It ain’t ‘perfect’ but it sure as hell is liberating these days.
And it happens because I know who I am and where I am going. I know why I am going there and I TRUST in my vision and back myself 100% to arrive there. I have built myself up to have such a solid character in this way and know it will only get better and better from here.
And because I LOVE throwing everything into my mission. Which includes of course, ALL of me.
That way I don’t ignore these days the whispering of my soul, that longing for more, the frustration which arises when I am not on my A Game. I listen, I empathise, I take time to heal and be kind to myself then I get the fuck back to being who I know I came here to be: The best version possible of myself, which includes ALL aspects of me.
Don’t ignore the signs. Every moment is a chance for a reset.
Ariella xx
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